I will survive

I need to chant that over and over. I'm not sure how things will play out - but last night, I was just informed that my husband will be going from working 6 days a week (with long days) to 7 days a week (with long days). This means that I'm on my own with the two kids. These long hours have already lasted months... long enough that I'm noticing significant differences in the kids and the way we relate to them. I am concerned.

Top that off with my ever increasing Fibromyalgia symptoms and I'm worried that I'll be unable to pull through this without completely losing it.

Okay, sorry about that - I didn't mean to dwell on negative. My point is that I'm finding myself needing more fresh air just to keep my mind focused. Today after running a few errands, I walked the kids down to the river that runs through Redmond. It's a peaceful river and there were geese and ducks swimming around. While I can't say that it relaxed me... it was nice to have a change of environment even for a brief moment.

Thankfully, my mother-in-law will be coming to try to help out for a few weeks. I just need to make it a week and a half until she gets here. I'm thankful to have this blog as a place for me to record the things I've been doing. Looking back on previous posts helps me remember that I am doing okay.

Today I sat outside in the backyard while I worked on finishing up several tack sets that I've had in the works for weeks now. Of course, I was outside while my kids played inside. I just couldn't seem to motivate them to spend a little time with me out in the sun. Perhaps they don't realize what a rarity it is to have sunshine and warmer temperatures right now. I figure - some sunshine, fresh air and a bottle of wine and I should be able to survive this big push toward the deadline that my husband has been working toward.